It's been really busy these last couple of weeks. About 2 weeks ago, Rick's brother Jack came to visit. It's crazy on how so alike they are, even though all together, they have only spent about week together in 10 years. Hopefully, he will be making his way back here more or Rick and I going to Florida to visit him. Jack and the face he makes in EVERY picture.

The weekend after his visit, it was our friend's Spencer's birthday. It was very chill, some cake and food and then just watching a movie on his BIG TV.

Spencer and his birthday cake (not and bad pic that I took!)

We knew that we only had so much time before he left today, so we out to dinner on his last night, hung out with a couple of people and then came home. I had planned to sleep in, have breakfast with Rick and then go out to lunch and drop him off at base. Well, we get a call around 9am the day of his deployment, saying that they don't have to come in for another 24 hours. Whoo hoo!! So awesome to hear! But then I got up and went straight to work, so that I could have the time off today.

So today, Rick finally left. It's been a long sad day. The house is quieter and WAY lonely. My cats have already noticed something is not right. Hopefully, they will sleep with me tonight. It will make me feel better. It's crazy to think that other people have to deal with longer and even worse conditions on their deployments. I have lots of respect for the spouses that have their loved ones on those deployments.

Friday the 13th. I never had a problem with that day except for now. It has taken 25 years for me to finally have a problem with that date. Work has been horrendous. I just hope my evening goes well.

It's been a while since I last wrote. Let's see, I guess the most important thing is that I finally made it home to CA. My mom was going to have surgery on the 26th of June. Her pre-op appt. was on the 21st. So I got in on the 20th and went with her to her appt. Well, since her health hasn't been great and her blood count is so low, the doctors decided to not operate. Well, that's good because we got to play a LOT. But bad because that means I wasn't really helping out and that she has to wait another 2 months to see if she is getting the operation then. We'll see what happens.

So me and my mama got to play the whole time I was there. We went shopping at Stanford Mall like 3 times,

Francisco and Mama at Stanford eating at our fav coffee place.

the District Assembly on Sunday,

Me and Mama

Francisco and Andy trying to look cool.

going to the beach,

It's MEEEEEE! And the beach.

more shopping, LOTS of eating of great food,

YUMMY pizza in Mountain View.

sleeping, shopping, seeing some friends,

Andrew and I

getting mani and pedis (first time for me to get a perdicure!)

FEET!

and shopping. Shopping was a huge priority. The clothes are easier to find for me out in CA than here in Omaha. I don't know what that is all about. But it was a lot of fun and we got to talk a lot about what's been going on and I spent a a lot of time trying to convince her to come out to Omaha. I have no idea if that will ever happen. But we'll see.

I need to go home more often. The flights out to CA are not very long and it was kind of cheap. So I might go home more than just once a year. Depends on the job though, if they let me go. I would be so IRKED, but I still haven't found another job, so I have to stay here until I can find something better. :-/

Francisco and I on my last day.

It was so awesome being with my family. I always think about them, I miss them everyday and hope that they are doing well everyday.

For our friend Ian's birthday, we decided to all meet up for dinner at Upstream. It's one of our favs here in Omaha. Well, it took a lot longer than expected to get a table. First of all, we thought it was only 6 of us, then it grew to like 13 or something. So we had to wait longer. It was a great dinner though in the end and made some new friends.

Ashley going a little crazy waiting for a table. hehe!

Finally seated!

The next day, our friends Eunice and her husband decided that they wanted to make dinner for Ian since they didn't get a chance to make it to dinner. It was delicious and lots of fun. They just bought a house and we finally got a chance to see it. It's really cute. They have a son, Nolan, and he's just the cutest thing! He's a funny little boy.

Zynda, Ashley, Rick and Enuice

Ian and Baby Nolan

Zynda and Baby Nolan

Enuice, Ian and his friend Brandy

Lots of things have gone on in the last couple of weeks since I last wrote. First, the Tim and Faith concert. That was a lot of fun. I was able to take Rick with me, I didn't know if I was just because I know he hates concert but give him a little alcohol, then he's a semi happier person. It was really good though, they have great voices and are able to the whole crowd up and singing. We weren't that far from the stage as I thought it would be. Anyways, that was a fun night. I was so tired the next day at work; it was a Wed. night concert. ECK!

Rick and I

Tim and Faith

Memorial Day weekend was nice and long and I did NOT want to come back to work today. But alas, I did, with a great sigh and hope for a better week.

On Friday, a couple of us went out to dinner and then went to a bar. It was a lot of fun, though I was the DD but I got to have my fun on Sat. Saturday was a busy day for us. Rick and I went to the Farmer's Market on Old Market. Then lunch at Spaghetti Works. After that, we went to our neighbor's birthday cookout and ate and hung out until about 9ish. Then we went out to Old Market again and this time I got to drink.

Zynda, Ashley and I at Mixxers

Ashley and I at Nomads

On Sunday, I don't remember what we did in the morning. I think we just hung out at home. And then we went to Ashley's place for Sunday dinner. YUM! And then we went to Rumors, which was kind of weird, since it was hip hop night and it's not the usual crowd that we are used to. On Monday, we went to Chris and Michelle's place for another cookout and that was fun. Hung out, watched some tv and the guys played quite a bit of video games. We got home by 930. TIRED. And now I'm at work, just doing whatev for another 2 hours. I hope that the afternoon goes by fast like this morning.

Michelle and I

The hubby and I

Yeah, nothing else is really going on. It's been really good having Rick home and I am NOT looking forward to him leaving in 2 months. :-/ These last 2 months have gone by quickly. And that's because he got out to the desert early and then left late. So yeah... :-/ But then we will have Christmas, New Year, my birthday and Ashley's wedding to be together for next year. AND A TAX FREE YEAR! Which means our next year's return will be nice and BIG!!! :) YAY!

Last week, after a LOOOOONG day at work, I came home and found Rick with a big ole smile on his face. He asked for a glass of water from the fridge, and when I got there, there was a dozen roses just hanging out. I was so surprised. Since we have been together, I have gotten flowers 3 times from him. So this was a super big deal for me. They were beautiful. So I asked him what he was up to since I rarely get flowers. Well, he told me to start going through my steps of what I do when I get home and there would be a surprise. So I went through them and still couldn't find his surprise. Finally he told me to just lay down on my bed. I laid my head on the pillow and when I went to curl up with it, I found my surprise.

He had gotten me a gun. It's a 357 Smith & Wesson revolver. It's the coolest! It's big and heavy and it's the most comfortable gun that I can shoot. I've tried other ones. But I like this one the best. We finally took it out to shoot at the Bullet Hole on Sunday. It was a lot of fun and I'm so glad that he got it for me. He will be leaving this summer again. And I don't like that I only had his rifle for protection and that I don't like shooting it. So I'm glad I have the revolver. And then yesterday he got himself another gun, I forgot what it's called but it's a little one and it's also kind of cool.

It's so weird that I would be so interested in guns. I grew up in CA, where guns are usually associated with gangs and killings or kids doing stupid stuff with them. So it's weird to come out here and it's more open and not associated with all the negative stuff. We will be showing in the future our kids the proper way to take care of a gun and how not to use them, how they are not for shotting people, etc. Though I find that there's still a lot of people that don't like guns and have never used them. For now, it's just for going to the range and shooting for a while and for the protection of myself and the kitties when Rick is not home.

Lately, work has been getting to me. I don't think there is a single day that I am at work where I get to go home and I'm in a good mood. Or at least an okay mood. Everyday, I'm tired, cranky and just not wanting to deal with anything at home. I don't know if it's depression or if it's just the life that I have at work affecting me to the point that it's affecting the the rest of my life. I have no idea if that made sense, but do you know what I mean? I want to get home happy and ready to clean and cook and make the hubby happy. I don't want to vent about work or think about how miserable I am.

I just don't think I can take it anymore. I am grateful that they sometimes do things for me, like they DID give me the time off to go see my mom in CA. But there's so much more on the CONS side that makes me want to turn in my two weeks notice and not give a shit about what I am leaving behind. Which is HORRIBLE of me, I always want to leave my job on a good note and make sure I still have friends there. But here, here I don't CARE.

We'll see what happens tomorrow. I turned in a couple of applications on Tuesday last week because I didn't know if they were going to give me the time off and I finally just decided to grow some balls and just do it. So I got a call back from a company that wants to meet me. We'll see what happens. Perhaps this my next step to a happier life.

These past 2 weeks have flown by so quickly. With Rick home, it has kind of thrown my schedual off and I am finally getting used to having him around, and not working out and eating more. Haha. I need to lose these pounds!

HOME! I miss home...

I talked to my mom a while back. Rick and I have always planned to go back to CA for at least a week this summer. But my mom is having surgery done in late June. So I decided that I would go then. The place that she lives in is too small and with her not feeling well after her surgery, it would just make it uncomfortable for all of us to stay there. So Rick is not coming with me. That's okay. He will get to play with the cats and I get a chance of alone time with my mom and get some shopping done! I can't wait!!!

My favorite place in the world: Stanford Mall!

I was scared that work wouldn't let me go. I know that other people were wanting to take that time off and did get it and I would have to stay here. Well, that was fine until I found out the dates and I told them that if I didn't get to go, then I would have to think about my position here. So yesterday they informed me that I got all the days off that I wanted. Which is really cool. But that means a less motivation to quit here. :-/

The weather has been really nice here lately. So nice that my cat Leo has been running way from home and not coming back for a while. It freaks the hell out of us. And last night he did it around 9pm. During the daytime it's easier for us to look for him of course. So I was really mad at him for doing that last night. He has had his outdoor privilages taken from him. Eck! Poor cat. maybe that will stop him from doing that now.

Yay! The hubby is home! He came in at around 7:30 last night. It was so awesome to see him. Before I went onto base, I stopped by Starbucks to get some chai teas. And they gave them to me for free when I told them I was picking up Rick. That was really nice of them.

He's had to go into work today really early, but hopefully he will get some rest in the next week or so. Yay! Rick is home!

Rick gets in today! Excited! But now I just found out that his plane is delayed by 4.5 hours! GRRRRR!!! It's not fair! I just want to see my husband. It's not fair! :( Nothing I can do about any of it, so I just have to learn to be paitent and calm and cool.

i carry your heart with me

by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere

i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling)i fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want

no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

I am only 15 days or so away from Rick. Yay! I'm so excited! I hope that he doesn't mind that the kitties have taken over his spot on the bed! Leo and Bella curl up with me every night.

I've starting cleaning up the house more. This past weekend, I cleaned the kitchen and the living room. I have to hit the dining room and office this week. Eventually I will get to the bathrooms.

I HATE cleaning bathrooms. I seriously was delusional when I was living with Nikki, my roommate when I was living in Monterey. I thought there was like a bathroom cleaning fairy and it was all done nice just for me. Ummm.... NO. It was actually Nikki cleaning the bathroom all the time. I was really lucky to have her as my roommate. The best one for sure. I only have a short time with other roomies, but it was weird and it was so scary living in a house in Seaside, up a couple of blocks from a high school and the ghetto. I am thankful for my Nikki. We used to do the funnest, silliest things, and I could totally go and talk to her when I needed to. She is so smart and so purty. :) She and the hubby Ron live in Washington and he's deploying soon. Sad. :( Hopefully I will go and visit her sometime soon.

I MISS YOU NIKKI! COME VISIT ME SOOOOOOOON!!

So.... while Rick is busy saving the world, I try to stay busy and not as lonely. I have my friends to pick me up and keep me happy while he's gone. I have some very awesome friends and there is one couple that's just always so much to go out with. Chris and Michelle have been married for about 2 years. I met them once we came out here to Omaha and we hang out with them quite a bit. While Michelle was on her deployment, we kept Chris has busy was we could on the weekends especially. Well, they in turn are keeping me busy on the weekends. I don't think I have been out this much since the summer of 2005. Whoo wee! That was a fun summer! And this season has been really close to it. Except that I'm married now, so I don't end up going home with someone. Haha! And that's a good thing!

Anyways... these are pics from just 2 nights of going out with them. And we went out last weekend, so I will have to get those pics from them soon.

Michelle and I with our Long Islands!

Okay, that was just a funky pic

Michelle and I at Bullfeathers

Me with the famous fishbowl! That was just start...

GRRRR!!!

I just found out that Rick won't be home until the 28th of this month. The next deployment is leaving a week late and so that means instead of coming on time, he's coming like a week and a half later than anticipated. On a good note on that, that means I have more time to get the house ready. Haha! But I was already getting into him coming home and what we were going to do and to make it more comfortable for him. :( It's frustrating, and LONELY, but I am a strong woman! :)

Felicity just had her baby this week! I can't believe that one of us is a MAMA! It's the first out of my friends that has had a baby. Well.... who's next?? Haha! I can't wait to meet little William Charles Hancock! It will be a while before I go out there but I WILL MAKE IT! I promise Fizzy! Your little family is beautiful!

Who really will be next? We are getting to that age that everyone is growing their own little families. I can't wait to have a couple of kids. I'm just going to have to ask Felicity all about the birth part and then I'll see how many I really do want.

CONGRATS FELICITY AND NATHANIEL!

We had a gorgeous weekend here in Omaha. I'm glad, we needed to finally warm up here after all the cold and snowy days.

Sunday night, my friends and I get together for dinner at someone's place. It's always great, dinner is always fresh and very well prepared. I've had great fish, chicken, and Ashley's husband makes some really awesome desserts. I haven't had an Sunday dinners at my house, just cause it's easier to go where everyone is closer. It's also a mess at the house. And I do always try to contribute to the dinners, by usually bring a nice wine that we can enjoy with the meal. Last night's dinner was awesome.

After dinner, we usually just relax and watch tv or a movie. Last night though we played the Friends' edition of Scene It, a game that's done from watching a DVD and guessing the answers. It was a ton of fun and though I didn't win this time, I WILL next time! Haha! I will have to watch my Friends' DVD collection again so that I can kick butt!

People ask me what is the worst part about my husband being away. Well, there's a lot. Little things like throwing the trash away or cleaning out the litter box of the kitties. I really HATE doing that.

The worst part is the loneliness. I hate feeling so alone in my house, at work, even with friends. I don't have my better half near me and it feels like my heart is torn in two and I can't do anything about it. I know it's the military life. I could have it so much worse. I could be without my husband for 6, 8, even 18 months! So I try not to feel sorry for myself too much and I try to keep busy with friends. It's hard though when there's a story I want to tell him and don't want to bombard his e-mail with all my crap. I don't want to stress him out with my stuff and my worries.

I pray every night that he is doing well and that he is safe. I also hope that he misses me, though that would be bad cause I wouldn't want him more stressed out than he already is from work. But just a little missing here and there would be good. haha.

Only a couple more weeks to go. I can do it! SPRING is here and I can't wait to enjoy it with him!

EEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT TICKETS FOR THE SOUL TO SOUL II CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I get to see Tim McGraw & Faith Hill on June 6, 2007!

Yay! Our couple friends Chris and Michelle also got some tickets. I'm so excited! I was thinking Rick would be mad, cause just bought them on a whim, but he just asked if he had to go. Well, unless someone else wants to go with me, NIKKI, then I will totally force him to go. Haha, he was forced to go to the James Blunt concert last year and he ended up really like it all, so I think he will enjoy it in the end. EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE MY JOB

I know that I have said that in the past and I threaten to leave the job. It's still hasn't happened. I applied for another position in this place but still haven't gotten any information on whether or not I got it. Most likely I haven't. It's just kind of frustrating because I want to to keep going up and up or go to another company but then I feel bad. They are moving into another building by the end of this year, so it's a lot of work that my replacement would have and a lot more to learn, since I have been given new responsibilities. So I don't think that I will quit until after the move, if I am still in this same position. I also feel bad, cause I would be leaving the Office Manager, and I think she's come to rely on me for a lot of venting and ideas for how to make the company better, though most ideas are not taken into consideration.

I feel like I can't go higher that where I am in life. I feel like I will always have mediocre jobs, that nothing will be better for my financially in my jobs because I don't have a degree. I also can't find a job related to the things I have done in the past. BLAH.

I HATE MY JOB LIFE.