I HATE MY JOB.

Everyone get that? I HATE MY JOB.

Everyday when I am getting ready to come to work, I think about a million and one excuses of why not to come. But then I remember that I have a family, we do need my paycheck to come into the family account. That's the only thing that keeps me going. I've talked to Rick about it... but it just seems like I need to stay here for a little longer, so that I can eventually leave and get a better one.

I know I can do better than this job. I know I am smarter than this, that I can do so much more. But... it just seems that I don't know where I am heading. I didn't finish my degree and I don't know how useful a Spanish degree would be. So I don't know what I am going to try to finish my degree in.

I don't feel useful, this job depresses me every time I come in. I don't think it's healthy for me to be here. :( I am going to try to get out of here soon. SOON!! I hope I can.... I will try to be as positive as I can when I am here, but it's hard to keep that constant happiness when I HATE MY JOB. Okay, I'm done for the moment. Maybe I'll vent later about this.

For quite some time, I have been drinking tea in the mornings. I love having my black or green tea in the mornings. They have just enough caffine so that I'm not super wired, just a nice pick me up at 8am that is always needed.

My favorite to drink is Chai tea. It doesn't even need to have milk in it. And I rarely drink any tea with sugar. I also love to have green tea with a hint of Jasmine in it. I thought it was weird when I first bought it but I really wanted some tea for the next morning so I bought the box and I really like it. At home, right now I have 4 boxes of tea. I bring one package to work in the morning, one for the afternoon and then save my chamomile tea for the evenings. Last night, I had one cup of it and by 10pm, I was passed out. It was nice to end the night with my tea.
There are also health benefits to tea: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15197558/. READ ME!

Fall has come into Omaha.

Kinda. Leaves are starting to turn.

Kinda.

Yesterday, the weather was beautiful. But HOT! I don't think we had had a hot day in weeks. It was bad. This town is starting to get mosquitos and gnats. Which I don't get, it's been cold and were they just staying in the warmest places they could find and then came out as soon as it got over 80 degrees!?! I got bite about a million time. Okay, that's exaggerated. But they are still my own bites and are killer itches. I haven't been outside today, we'll see how it feels at 4:30.

It was nice to play outside yesterday at the house. We are still not done with cleaning out the apt. but are almost outta there. You know, it's the stuff that can't fit into the boxes or super heavy that you can't move by yourself. Being outside at the house was awesome though. We had the ktties out and playing, then resting and Rick got a little sun on his face. I got bit by stupid gnats. What are they good for in this world? Perhaps the spiders just needed another thing to eat. GRR!!!

Leo and Bella are getting to playful lately and that was fun to watch in the yard. They compliment each other very well. Here's a recent picture of them together, hanging out on the front porch. Note the work that will eventually will have to get done to it. We will have to replace boards and stain it all nice. I can't wait. lol.