I HATE MY JOB.

Everyone get that? I HATE MY JOB.

Everyday when I am getting ready to come to work, I think about a million and one excuses of why not to come. But then I remember that I have a family, we do need my paycheck to come into the family account. That's the only thing that keeps me going. I've talked to Rick about it... but it just seems like I need to stay here for a little longer, so that I can eventually leave and get a better one.

I know I can do better than this job. I know I am smarter than this, that I can do so much more. But... it just seems that I don't know where I am heading. I didn't finish my degree and I don't know how useful a Spanish degree would be. So I don't know what I am going to try to finish my degree in.

I don't feel useful, this job depresses me every time I come in. I don't think it's healthy for me to be here. :( I am going to try to get out of here soon. SOON!! I hope I can.... I will try to be as positive as I can when I am here, but it's hard to keep that constant happiness when I HATE MY JOB. Okay, I'm done for the moment. Maybe I'll vent later about this.

For quite some time, I have been drinking tea in the mornings. I love having my black or green tea in the mornings. They have just enough caffine so that I'm not super wired, just a nice pick me up at 8am that is always needed.

My favorite to drink is Chai tea. It doesn't even need to have milk in it. And I rarely drink any tea with sugar. I also love to have green tea with a hint of Jasmine in it. I thought it was weird when I first bought it but I really wanted some tea for the next morning so I bought the box and I really like it. At home, right now I have 4 boxes of tea. I bring one package to work in the morning, one for the afternoon and then save my chamomile tea for the evenings. Last night, I had one cup of it and by 10pm, I was passed out. It was nice to end the night with my tea.
There are also health benefits to tea: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15197558/. READ ME!

Fall has come into Omaha.

Kinda. Leaves are starting to turn.

Kinda.

Yesterday, the weather was beautiful. But HOT! I don't think we had had a hot day in weeks. It was bad. This town is starting to get mosquitos and gnats. Which I don't get, it's been cold and were they just staying in the warmest places they could find and then came out as soon as it got over 80 degrees!?! I got bite about a million time. Okay, that's exaggerated. But they are still my own bites and are killer itches. I haven't been outside today, we'll see how it feels at 4:30.

It was nice to play outside yesterday at the house. We are still not done with cleaning out the apt. but are almost outta there. You know, it's the stuff that can't fit into the boxes or super heavy that you can't move by yourself. Being outside at the house was awesome though. We had the ktties out and playing, then resting and Rick got a little sun on his face. I got bit by stupid gnats. What are they good for in this world? Perhaps the spiders just needed another thing to eat. GRR!!!

Leo and Bella are getting to playful lately and that was fun to watch in the yard. They compliment each other very well. Here's a recent picture of them together, hanging out on the front porch. Note the work that will eventually will have to get done to it. We will have to replace boards and stain it all nice. I can't wait. lol.

Okay, okay, I know I know... I haven't written in a while. That's cause I've just been so dang busy! Well, not at all at work, but with the rest of my life.

So we got the house. We are almost all the way moved in. It was the worse weekend to move in. We closed last week on it. And almost right away we started working on it. We painted the living room, took the carpet off from 2 rooms upstairs. And we painted a bathroom and made holes in a couple of rooms that eventually got filled in.

And then I got sick. I got a cold. YUCKA! I still have a cold. I'm surprised that I was able to do anything this weekend. We moved all of our big pieces this weekend since it was the only time that we had. Unfortunatly, they all don't fit in the right places. The bedroom furniture won't go upstairs, which made us frustrated and then we decided to pull off the frame to see if that helped. It did a tiny bit. We have slept in the living room for the last 2 nights. It's kind of cool. We have the tv to fall asleep to. :)

There is no hot water in the house yet, because we kept missing the gas dude. So hopefully when I get home today, there will be HOT water finally. I had to wash my hair with very very COLD water.

I'm feeling a little better, though while here at work, I felt like I had a fever for an hour or 2. I don't know what that was all about. But it feels better.

It's absolutly gorgeous here in Omaha. Fall treats this town well. I have been enjoying it, we will have a day or 2 of rain and then beautiful sunny weather with a nice crisp wind. I wish it was like this all the time.

I've been thinking about how Rick and I are finally settling down. It's crazy to think a year ago I was still in Monterey and just trying to find us a place to live here in Omaha. I'm happy at how everything is working out in our lives. I just need to find another job or something. That part of my life needs to get better. I need to finish my degree and get going on finding something that keeps me working my brain, cause it's going dead from boredum. I think that's possible... right? haha. That's about it that's going on. I'll put pictures up of the house sometime soon, with the new color of living room and the kitchen that will be hopefully done later this week... Ciao!

Okay, this is week I hope goes by really fast. We are moving into our house at the end of this week, which means we should be out of the apt. by Monday. We don't have a lot to pack, but still is stressful thinking about stuff like that.

Hmmm.... nothing else is really going on. There's nothing much to do until this Friday. The weather I think has been wonderful. It's been raining, which was much needed by Omaha. And so yesterday, Rick and I just watched movies and hung around the house, though in the morning, we went to Lowe's to see what materials we needed to make one of the rooms of the house into a walk in closet. That will be fun! Especially for him, he will finally get a chance to really play with the tools that his dad bought he last winter.

Today is the 5th year anniversary for the attacks made to the US. It's been interesting what stories have been online and all the memorials they are doing for it.

That's about it. When we move, I'll take pictures of the house to show you the before and afters of the purple kitchen. LOL!

Everyday I talk to Felicity. We've known each other for just about 6 years. Time has gone by so fast and we've been through quite a bit with our own personal lives. I miss her lots and hope that I get to see her soon. It's been just a little over a year since I last saw her. Crazy!

Lately, we've been talking on GoogleTalk. Best invention ever! I finally know what's going on with her life day to day, though most of our talks are about how much we hate our jobs. :) HAHA! But it's all good, we understand each other and it's awesome to vent to someone that feels the same way you do.

She is like the bestest friend that you could ever have and I miss her all the time. I wish that we lived closer, though it is a bit better instead of me living in Cal at 3000 miles away, I'm only 1500 miles away in Omaha. Hmmm... I don't have any pictures to add of her and I. I'll look at my pictures at home. :)

Since I don't have children, I like talking about my cats... hahaha. I'm going to become the Cat Lady one day, though they would prob. kill me since my allerigies would get just worse and worse because they would all be indoor cats.

Anyhoo, so I *heart* my cats Bella and Leopold. Actually, Leo is Rick's. But he's finally warmed up to me and since Rick has been gone all week, then he's been mines. They have gotten a little bigger since we got them from the Humane Society. Leo for sure, he's hard to pick up now!!! They lay around and I try to play with them, Bella's too wired for me sometimes, Leo is just so chilll that he never plays. I'll get him to play one day. :)

I *heart* my husband!

I just want my husband to come home. I get to clean house today to make sure that he comes home to a clean place. I can't wait to see him!!

Hmmm.... I wonder if he got me anything from England.... hehe!

Painting by Chagall...

Okay, I decided to write about the house again. Maybe it will get me out of this funk.

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So yesterday we had the inspection on the house done. It turned out that all it needs is foundation help on the kitchen side, some plumbing help, electrical wiring changed and that's about it.

SO.... that makes me wonder about what we should do. It's in a WAY better shape than the other house that we looked at. So that's good. But do we want to put money into it, turning out to be a MONEY PIT??

There's another house that we looked at, that's just up the street and even though it's smaller, it's foundation looked good, from what Rick could tell, newer appliences and it's got 2 FULL bathrooms, so that's a plus. Newer washer and dryer too. So it's a toss up. Rick's decision. I talked to him last night about it all and just kind of left it up to him to decide.

I personally wouldn't mind the smaller house with the newer stuff and that would mean not worrying about things too much for a couple of years, instead of worrying all the time about when the wiring will go nuts and make a fire or the plumbing just die on us all of a sudden. It's scary to think about that stuff. That means we would definatly put off the baby making for even longer, just because it is only 2 bedrooms, while the house that we put a bid on is 4 bedrooms. I don't mind that since we've already made our decision on all of that. We would wait for 5 years. But there could always be the OOPS! baby. You never know. I've been on the pill for like 7-8 years so I'm almost positive it won't happen, just never know though. Anyway, back to the house. Again, I left it up to Rick to decide. And since he's in England, I'll just have e-mail and maybe a phone to see what's going on with all of that.

He called me last night. It made me so happy!!! He's so tired though. And this morning I got a message from him. I can't wait to see him. I has been since Jan. that we have been a part for more than day. So it's bumming me out. We'll see how I do when he gets deployed :0/

Ending on a good note... It's almost lunch time so I'll get to eat my PB&J unless... I go across the street to eat a QUESADILLA!! HMMMM....

STUPID PIECE OF CRAP BLOG STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO I had a great blog that I wrote up about the house and me venting about the house and the stressful feelings I have from it. STUPID BLOG THING decides that it doesn't want to work for a while and so I lose my blog. It was great and now I am in a even worst mood than when I got to work.

This week, my hubby is gone. He was told on Thursday that he would be leaving for England for a week on Monday.He left yesterday. That's awesome, cause he gets to do his last 2 flights of training, and if (he WILL) passes, then we will finally be out of trianing status and really doing his job. That also means that he will prob. be deployed in November. That's okay. I wish it wasn't in Winter that would be leaving, just cause it's like the most I would want him here to keep me warm!

While in England, he's just going to be hanging out til they leave on Friday. Hopefully they will leave on Friday, there's always the possibility of the plane not working and he would have to stay longer. But I will pray for that not to happen.

The military are trying to keep the deployments a short time period, like 2 months instead of 3. That would be so awesome if they would do that!! But who knows... They might just change it to longer... depends on how big the next group of students are.

I better get back to work on my boredum. Maybe I'll write about the house later today or tomorrow.

P.S.When I write a new blog, it's usually because I am bored at work, at my last straw of sanity.Haha. It happens quite often. But I also don't have a lot going on on. It's a toss up....

I was just looking outside; it rained last night and it's still a bit dreary looking. But I personally like that here in Omaha. It reminds me of the days in Monterey when we would be fogged in every single freaking day and made me depressed. Okay, maybe that's not the most cheerful reminder of Monterey. Last time I went home to California, the weather was beautiful. It was perfect. Even Monterey! Usually it's chilly and foggy, but the days that I was there, it was not windy, the ocean was still and it was perfectly sunny. Rick hates California. He says it's too perfect, and now I totally agree with him on that. Haha, I don't hate it though, it just makes me appreciate it more more while I am here in Omaha.

San Francisco was also beautiful, which is rare since if you've been there, you know how the fog creeps in quickly and it's always windy and very chilly even with the sun out.

I know for a fact that I will be here until 2010. That's fine with me. After that, it's mostly Rick's decision on what he wants to do with his life. I'm along for the ride... and it's a great adventure so far.

I have a friend, he's name is Ed. But I call him Zynda, that's his last name. But that's how I was introduced to him. Anyways, he has a digital camera. I love playing with it when we are going out to the bars or dinner. I constantly take pictures of myself or Rick and I or Zynda making funny faces. Zynda is a really cool friend. And he makes great food, he invites us for dinner almost every week and he makes food ribs or chicken or something out of Italian cookbook and then we watch movies.

Rick and I need to get a new camera. So here are some of the pictures that I have taken of me and Rick and me and Zynda. I'll put some up later with my funny faces. :)

Okay, again, I'm at work bored. BORED!! What's new? That's what I hate about my job, there is hardly any change. I wish that I at least would be able to work on projects or something.

I want to be home with my kitties. I *heart* Bella. She's the one on the bottom picture. I hate that I'm not at home playing with her. I guess this is a similar feeling that you get when you have a child or 2. That will be weird. Our other cat Leopold is very independent. But when he gets snuggly, he will melt your heart. He's so sweet and will meow at you until you finally pet him and he will be happy with a little scratch under his chin. He loves laying down in the tub and the sink. One of these days, Rick said he will accidentally will turn the water on while trying to get out. That would be funny and sad. I *heart* Leopold. Haha, Rick thought of that name, I think it's awesome.

Okay, nothing else going on. Bored...

I just wanted to say that I am so BORED at work. Everyday, I count down until 4:30 in the afternoon. I feel sometimes like I'm in the show The Office, the receptionist on the show. BORING!!!!!!!!

So I'm at work right now, totally bummed we didn't get the house. Of course, we didn't get it for very good reasons, mainly the house being a piece of crap, but that means we have to start the searching process ALL OVER AGAIN. How do people do this? It's so stressful and hard and really really bumming. I hope we can keep our apt. for a couple of more months.... at least another month...

It's dreary outside. I know it's warm, I just stepped outside, humid and overcast. But it looks just like Monterey does during the June Gloom. The weather is so different here. When it's hot, it's HOT! I don't do anything during those days, just stay home until the evening comes and it's cooled down a little bit. Then I head out if it's the weekend, or just stay inside because by that time it's almost time to go to bed on the weekdays.

When I went to go visit my mom last month, I realized how spoiled I was in California with the weather. Everyday is perfect there. Or at least it was the week I was there. Hmmm... I miss home. I miss Monterey. Omaha is better than it was when I first got here in December last year. I look forward to fall and winter coming. Then I'll write a post 6 months from now about how I am hating the snow or ice or something about the weather here.